To the Deaf Serenity is a 17 minutes composition about living with psychotic depression. It is a condition where a severe depressive disorder includes some kind of psychosis, which can manifest as visual or auditory hallucinations, delusions, or some other breach from reality. Orestes interpretated this particular experience as a massive behemoth that spans from high guttural of death metal to layered sonic dronings.
I. The Vine
the vine is birth and death,
is what is born
the vine conquered my oak, disabled me
the vine is one’s decay, drained all of me
all i wanted to let me die
the flaw in love fraught with sorrows
curious sadness
despair at what we lose
turned me into feeble
i’m not strong enough to stop breathing
lethargic in dramatic ending
crushing me without holding me
crack my bones, desiccate my body
until there's nothing left to feed
your distant calls
buried rage beneath my feet
34 years forging
the pain in which i have settled in
with the remnant of yours
as i traced along the path
enlightened with the lights you emit
II. To the Deaf Serenity
you're blinded in frame, unseen
no time for pity
thirst of morning sun burns my throat
everyone is here but i can't see
can i blame you for loneliness
foggy road leads me to shunts
to the deaf serenity
i’ve become numb
i’m losing senses,
yet we're lovers
send my breath as moonlit arch of teared dust
the faith without believers and language that no one speaks
contain the ocean
with your mouth open wide
dissolve into seabed
with perfect curve of farewell
ploughing into waves of riled ocean
life’s not possible to breathe easy
stole my apathy and turned it bleak
out of the wreck, you, will relapse
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To the Deaf Serenity,
track released March 30, 2020
Written by Fachri Bayu Wicaksono
Produced by Fachri Bayu Wicaksono
All lyrics by Fachri Bayu Wicaksono and Mathias Pradityanto
All instruments recorded by Fachri Bayu Wicaksono at KI/IX Studio, Tangerang
Except drums recorded by Casey Leiwakabessy at Highground Studio, Tangerang
Mixed by Fachri Bayu Wicaksono
Mastered by Wing Narada Putra
Artwork by Chequita Ernantia
Retouched and layout by Chaoticsense
ORESTES in this record are:
Fachri Bayu Wicaksono – Vocals, Guitar, Bass, Samples and Lyrics
Gemuruh Adhityatama – Drums
Mathias Pradityanto – Lyrics
Chequita Ernantia – Visual Artist
Chaoticsense – Visual Artist
Wing Narada Putra (MVRCK) – Mastering Engineer
